ゞthe days of my life〃

和墮云慕

耶紗慕禰

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 beside us�察�while the Arab�察�streaming with perspiration�察�danced round and objurgated him and us in his native tongue until he was appeased with large baksheesh。 Brownrigg�察�who will never be nearer to a dreadful death than he was that day�察�told me afterwards that�察�strong as his head was�察�he found it impossible to attempt the descent face outwards�察�since the thickness of the cap hid the sides of the pyramid from his sight�察�so that all he saw beneath him was some three hundred feet of empty space。 Therefore he turned and soon found himself quite helpless�察�since he could neither find any foothold beneath him�察�nor could he reascend。 Had not the watchful Arab seen him and his case�察�in another few minutes he must have fallen and been dashed to pieces at our feet。 The memory of that scene still makes my back feel cold and my flesh creep。 I have tried to reproduce it in ^Ayesha�察院�where Holly falls from the rock to the ice´covered river far beneath。
From Egypt I sailed to Cyprus in a tub of a ship�察�where a rat had its nest behind my bunk。 It was my first visit to that delightful and romantic isle�察�over which all the civilisations have poured in turn�察�wave by wave�察�till at length came the Turk�察�beneath whose foot ^the grass does not grow�察院�and�察�by the special mercy of Providence�察�after the Turk the English。
Here I was the guest of my old chief�察�Sir Henry Bulwer�察�who at that time was High missioner for the island。
From Government House at Nicosia I made various delightful expeditions in the pany of Mrs。 Caldwell�察�Sir Henry Bulwer¨s sister�察�and her daughters。 For instance we visited Famagusta�察�that marvellous mediaeval�察�walled town�察�built and fortified by the Veians�察�that the Turks took after a terrible siege�察�for the details of which I will refer the reader to my book�察 �A Winter Pilgrimage�察院�written many years later after a second visit to Cyprus。
In 1887�察�strange as it may seem�察�the debris of this siege were still very much in evidence。 Thus after about three centuries the balls fired by the Turkish cannon lay all over the place。 I hold one of them in my hand as I write�察�slightly pit´marked by the passage of time�察�or more probably by flaws in the casting。
Here in this beautiful island of Venus I trusted�察�before turning to my tasks again�察�to have a little real holiday after a good many years of very hard work。 But�察�as it happened�察�holidays have never been for me。 At the age of nieen�察�to say nothing of the preliminary toils of education�察�I began to labour�察�and at the age of fifty´six I still find myself labouring with the firm and�察�so far as I can judge�察�well´grounded prospect that I shall continue to labour on public and private business till health and intelligence fail me�察�or�察�as I hope�察�death overtakes me while these still remain。
Here I must go back a little。 In the winter of 1886�察�as I remember very much against my own will�察�I was worried into writing an article about ^Fiction ̄ for the Contemporary Review。
It is almost needless for me to say that for a young writer who had suddenly e into some kind of fame to spring a dissertation of this kind upon the literary world over his own name was very little short of madness。 Such views must necessarily make him enemies�察�secret or declared�察�by the hundred。 There are two bits of advice which I will offer to the youthful author of the future。 Never preach about your trade�察�and�察�above all�察�never criticise other practitioners of that trade�察�however profoundly you may disagree with them。 Heaven knows there are critics enough without your taking a hand in the business。 Do your work as well as you can and leave other people to do theirs�察�and the public to judge between them。 Secondly�察�unless you are absolutely driven to it�察�as of course may happen sometimes�察�never enter into a controversy with a newspaper。
To return�此�this unfortunate article about ^Fiction ̄ made me plenty of enemies�察�and the mere fact of my remarkable success made me plenty more。 Through no fault of mine�察�also�察�these foes found a very able leader in the person of Mr。 Stead�察�who at that time was the editor of the Pall Mall Gazette。 I should say�察�however�察�that of late years Mr。 Stead has quite changed his attitude towards me and has indeed bee very plimentary�察�both with reference to my literary and to my public work。 For my part�察�too�察�I have long ago forgiven his onslaughts�察�as I can honestly say I have forgiven everybody else for every harm that they have done�察�or tried to do me。
To go back to ^Jess。 ̄ Being somewhat piqued by the frequent descriptions of myself as ^a mere writer of romances and boys¨ books�察院�I determined to try my hand at another novel ��if one es to think of it ^Dawn ̄ and ^The Witch¨s Head ̄ were novels�察�but these had been obliterated by ^King Solomon¨s Mines ̄��。 So after I had finished ^Allan Quatermain ̄ I set to as I have already described�察�and wrote ^Jess。 ̄
It is a gloomy story and painful to an Englishman�察�so gloomy and painful that Lang could scarcely read it�察�having a nature susceptible as a sensitive plant。 I feel this myself�察�for except when I went through it some fifteen years ago to correct it for a new illustrated edition�察�I too have never reread it�察�and I think that I never mean to do so。 The thing is a living record of our shame in South Africa�察�written by one by whom it was endured。 And therefore it lives�察�for it is a bit of history put into tangible and human shape。 At any rate�察�the other day the publishers kindly sent me a copy of the twenty´seventh edition of the work�察�which of course has been circulated in countless numbers in a cheap form。 I believe that in South Africa they think highly of ^Jess ̄�察�even the Boers of the new generation read it。 I remember that when some of their trenches were stormed in the last war�察�the special correspondents reported that the only book found in them was ^Jess。 ̄
I returned to England by long sea�察�avoiding the train journey across Europe。 This I undertook when I went out in order to study the Egyptian collections at the Louvre and Turin。 As it happened I never saw that at Turin。 When I arrived there�察�purposing to spend an afternoon at the museum�察�my cabman drove me to a distant circus�察�and when at length I did reach the said museum�察�it was to find that on this particular day it was closed。
On my arrival in England what between success and attacks I found myself quite a celebrity�察�one whose name was in everybody¨s mouth。 I made money�察�for instance I sold ^Cleopatra ̄ for a large sum in cash�察�and also ^Colonel Quaritch�察�V。C。�察院�a tale of English country life which Longman liked ! it was dedicated to him ! and Lang hated it so much that I think he called it the worst book that ever was written。 Or perhaps it was someone else who favoured it with that description。 Some of this money I lost�察�for really I had not time to look after it�察�and the investments suggested by kind friends connected with the City were apt to prove disappointing。 Some of it I spent in paying off back debts and mortgages on our property�察�and in doing up this house which it sadly needed�察�as well as countless farm buildings�察�and a proportion was absorbed by our personal expenditure。 For instance we moved into a larger house in Radcliffe Square and there entertained a little�察�though not to any great extent�察�for we never were extravagant。 Also I became what is called famous�察�which in practice means that people are glad to ask you out to dinner�察�and when you enter a room everyone turns to look at you。 Also it means that bores of the most appalling description write to you from all over the earth�察�and expect answers。
Therefore�察�although I had the affection of my old friends and made one or two new ones�察�such as Charles Longman�察�with whom�察�to my great good fortune�察�I began to grow intimate about this time�察�it came about that I was much envied and not a little hated by many who made my life bitter with constant attacks in the Press�察�which�察�being somewhat sensitive by nature�察�I was foolish enough to feel。 Indeed there came a time when for a good many years I would read no reviews of my books�察�unless chance thrust them under my eyes。 Therefore of those years there are few literary records。
In addition to much worry�察�my work at this time was truly overwhelming。 The unf
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