ent； fearing that the services would turn into a demonstration。 The mourners themselves did not learn until the last moment that the body would be cremated at half past six in the morning。
Entering the crematorium； Tomas did not understand what was happening： the hall was lit up like a film studio。 Looking around in bewilderment； he noticed cameras set up in three places。 No； it was not television； it was the police。 They were filming the funeral to study who had attended it。 An old colleague of the dead scientist； still a member of the Academy of Sciences； had been brave enough to make the funeral oration。 He had never counted on becoming a film star。
When the services were over and everyone had paid his respects to the family of the deceased； Tomas noticed a group of men in one corner of the hall and spotted the tall； stooped editor among them。 The sight of him made Tomas feel how much he missed these people who feared nothing and seemed bound by a deep friendship。 He started off in the editor's direction with a smile and a greeting on his lips； but when the editor saw him he said； Careful！ Don't come any closer。
It was a strange thing to say。 Tomas was not sure whether to interpret it as a sincere； friendly warning （ Watch out； we're being filmed； if you talk to us； you may be hauled in for another interrogation ） or as irony （ If you weren't brave enough to sign the petition； be consistent and don't try the old…pals act on us ）。 Whatever the message meant； Tomas heeded it and moved off。 He had the feeling that the beautiful woman on the railway platform had not only stepped into the sleeping car but； just as he was about to tell her how much he admired her； had put her finger over his lips and forbidden him to speak。
20
That afternoon； he had another interesting encounter。 He was washing the display window of a large shoe shop when a young man came to a halt right next to him； leaned up close to the window； and began scrutinizing the prices。
Prices are up； said Tomas without interrupting his pursuit of the rivulets trickling down the glass。
The man looked over at him。 He was a hospital colleague of Tomas's； the one I have designated S。； the very one who had sneered at Tomas while under the impression that Tomas had written a statement of self…criticism。 Tomas was delighted to see him （naively so； as we delight in unexpected events）； but what he saw in his former colleague's eyes （before S。 had a chance to pull himself together） was a look of none…too…pleasant surprise。 How are you？ S。 asked。
Before Tomas could respond； he realized that S。 was ashamed of having asked。 It was patently ridiculous for a doctor practicing his profession to ask a doctor washing windows how he was。
To clear the air Tomas came out with as sprightly a Fine； just fine！ as he could muster； but he immediately felt that no matter how hard he tried （in fact； because he tried so hard）； his fine sounded bitterly ironic。 And so he quickly added； What's new at the hospital？
Nothing； S。 answered。 Same as always。 His response； too； though meant to be as neutral as possible； was completely inappropriate； and they both knew it。 And they knew they both knew it。 How can things be the same as always when one of them is washing windows？ How's the chief？ asked Tomas。 You mean you don't see him？ asked S。 No； said Tomas。
It was true。 From the day he left； he had not seen the chief surgeon even once。 And they had worked so well together； they had even tended to think of themselves as friends。 So no matter how he said it； his no had a sad ring； and Tomas suspected that S。 was angry with him for bringing up the subject： like the chief surgeon； S。 had never dropped by to ask Tomas how he was doing or whether he needed anything。
All conversation between the two former colleagues had become impossible； even though they both regretted it； Tomas especially。 He was not angry with his colleagues for having forgotten him。 If only he could make that clear to the young man beside him。 What he really wanted to say was There's nothing to be ashamed of！ It's perfectly normal for our paths not to cross。 There's nothing to get upset about！ I'm glad to see you！ But he was afraid to say it； because everything he had said so far failed to come out as intended； and these sincere words； too； would sound sarcastic to his colleague。
I'm sorry； said S。 after a long pause； I'm in a real hurry。 He held out his hand。 I'll give you a buzz。
During the period when his colleagues turned their noses up at him for his supposed cowardice； they all smiled at him。 Now that they could no longer scorn him； now that they were constrained to respect him； they gave him a wide berth。
Then again； even his old patients had stopped sending for him； to say nothing of greeting him with champagne。 The situation of the declasse intellectual was no longer exceptional； it had turned into something permanent and unpleasant to confront。
21
He went home； lay down； and fell asleep earlier than usual。 An hour later he woke up with stomach pains。 They were an old malady that appeared whenever he was depressed。 He opened the medicine chest and let out a curse： it was completely empty； he had forgotten to keep it stocked。 He tried to keep the pain under control by force of will and was； in fact； fairly successful； but he could not fall asleep again。 When Tereza came home at half past one； he felt like chatting with her。 He told her about the funeral； about the editor's refusal to talk to him； and about his encounter with S。
Prague has grown so ugly lately； said Tereza。
I know； said Tomas。
Tereza paused and said softly； The best thing to do would be to move away。
I agree； said Tomas； but there's nowhere to go。
He was sitting on the bed in his pajamas； and she came and sat down next to him； putting her arms around his body from the side。
What about the country？ she said。
The country？ he asked； surprised。
We'd be alone there。 You wouldn't meet that editor or your old colleagues。 The people there are different。 And we'd be getting back to nature。 Nature is the same as it always was。
Just then Tomas felt another stab in his stomach。 It made him feel old； feel that what he longed for more than anything else was peace and quiet。
Maybe you're right； he said with difficulty。 The pain made it hard for him to breathe。
We'd have a little house and a little garden； but big enough to give Karenin room for a decent run。
Yes； said Tomas。
He was trying to picture what it would be like if they did move to the country。 He would have difficulty finding a new woman every week。 It would mean an end to his erotic adventures。
The only thing is； you'd be bored with me in the country； said Tereza as if reading his mind。
The pain grew more intense。 He could not speak。 It occurred to him that his womanizing was also something of an Es muss sein！ —an imperative enslaving him。 He longed for a holiday。 But for an absolute holiday； a rest from a// imperatives； from all Es muss sein！ If he could take a rest （a permanent rest） from the hospital operating table； then why not from the world operating table； the one where his imaginary scalpel opened the strongbox women use to hide their illusory one…millionth part dissimilarity？
Your stomach is acting up again！ Tereza exclaimed； only then realizing that something was wrong。 He nodded。
Have you had your injection？
He shook his head。 I forgot to lay in a supply of medication。
Though annoyed at his carelessness； she stroked his forehead； which was beaded with sweat from the pain。
I feel a little better now。
Lie down； she said； and covered him with a blanket。 She went off to the bathroom and in a minute was back and lying next to him。
Without lifting his head from the pillow； he turned to her and nearly gasped： the grief burning in her eyes was unbearable。
Tell me； Tereza； what's wrong？ Something's been going on inside you lately。 I can feel it。 I know it。
No。 She shook her head。 There's nothing wrong。
There's no point in denying it。
It's still the same things； she said。
The same things meant her jealousy and his infidelities。
But Tomas would not let up。 No； Tereza。 This time it's something different。 It's never been this bad before。
Well then； I'll tell you； she s