idea how the whole thing would e out； though I did hope。 You see I didn't want to kill you； not unless I had to。 I knew you loved me； that was obvious from the beginning。 It was different from the feeble animal passion of all those male brutes who have told me that they love me。 They loved a malleable case of flesh。 You love me for everything that I am； because we are both the same。〃
〃We are not the same；〃 I insisted； but there was no conviction in my voice。 She only smiled。 〃You killand enjoy killingthat's our basic difference。 Don't you see that？〃
〃Nonsense！〃 She dismissed the idea with an airy wave。 〃You killed last nightrather a good job tooand I didn't notice any reluctance on your part。 In fact； wasn't there a certain amount of enthusiasm？〃
I don't know why； but I felt as if a noose was tightening around my neck。 Everything she said was wrongbut I couldn't see where it was wrong。 Where was the way out； the solution that would solve everything？
〃Let's leave Freibur；〃 I said at last。 〃Get away from this monstrous and unnecessary rebellion。 There will be deaths and killing and no need for them。〃
〃We'll goif we go someplace where we can do just as well；〃 Angela said； and there was a hardness back in her voice。 〃That's not the major point though。 There's something you are going to have to settle in your own mind before you will be happy。 This stupid importance you attach to death。 Don't you realize how pletely trivial it is？ Two hundred years from now you； I and every person now living in the galaxy will be dead。 What does it matter if a few of them are helped along and reach their destination a bit quicker？ They'd do the same to you if they had the chance。〃
〃You're wrong；〃 I insisted； knowing that there is more to living and dying than just this pessimistic philosophy； but unable in this moment of stress to clarify and speak my ideas。 Angela was a powerful drug and my tiny remaining shard of passionate reserve didn't stand a chance； washed under by the flood of stronger emotions。 I pulled her to me； kissing her； knowing that this solved most of the problems although it made the final solution that much more difficult。
A thin and irritating buzz scratched at my ears； and Angela heard it too。 Separating was difficult for both of us。 I sat and watched unseeingly while she went to the vidiphone。 She blanked the video circuits and snapped a query into it。 I couldn't hear the answer because she had the speaker off and listened through the earpiece。 Once or twice she said yes； and looked up suddenly at me。 There was no indication of whom she was talking to； and I hadn't the slightest interest。 There were problems enough around。
After hanging up she just stood quietly for a moment and I waited for her to speak。 Instead she walked to her dressing table and opened the drawer。 There were a lot of things that could have been concealed there； but she took out the one thing I was least suspecting。
A gun。 Big barreled and deadly； pointing at me。
〃Why did you do it； Jim？〃 she asked； tears in the corners of her eyes。 〃Why did you want to do it？〃
She didn't even hear my baffled answer。 Her thoughts were on herselfthough the recoilless never wavered from a point aimed midway in my skull。 With alarming suddenness she straightened up and angrily brushed at her eyes。
〃You didn't do anything；〃 she said with the old hard chill on her words。 〃I did it myself because I let myself believe that one man could be any different from the others。 You have taught me a valuable lesson； and out of gratitude I will kill you quickly； instead of in the way I would much prefer。〃
〃What the bell are you talking about；〃 I roared； pletely baffled。
〃Don't play the innocent to the very aid；〃 she said； as she reached carefully behind her and drew a small heavy bag from under the bed。 〃That was the radar post。 I installed the equipment myself and have the operators bribed to give me first notice。 A ring of shipsas you well knowhas dropped from space and surrounded this area。 Your job was to keep me occupied so I wouldn't notice this。 The plan came perilously close to succeeding。〃 She put a coat over her arm and backed across the room。
〃If I told you I was innocentgave you my most sincere word of honorwould you believe me？〃 I asked。 〃I have nothing to do with this and know nothing about it。〃
〃Hooray for the Boy Space Scout；〃 Angela said with bitter mockery。 〃Why don't you admit the truth； since you will be dead in twenty seconds no matter what you say。〃
〃I've told you the truth。〃 I wondered if I could reach her before she fired； but knew it was impossible。
〃Good…by； James diGriz。 It was nice knowing youfor a while。 Let me leave you with a last pleasant thought。 All this was in vain。 There is a door and an exit behind me that no one knows about。 Before your police get here I shall be safely gone。 And if the thought tortures you a bit； I intend to go on killing and killing and killing and you will never be able to stop me。〃
My Angela raised the gun for a surer aim as she touched a switch in the molding。 A panel rolled back revealing a square of blackness in the wall。
〃Spare me the histrionics； Jim；〃 she said disgustedly； her eyes looking into mine over the sight of the gun。 Her finger tightened。 〃 I wouldn't expect that kind of juvenile trick from you； staring over my shoulder and widening your eyes as if there were someone behind me。 I'm not going to turn and look。 You're not getting out of this one alive。〃
〃Famous last words；〃 I said as I jumped sideways。 The gun boomed but the bullet plowed into the ceiling。 Inskipp stood behind her； twisting the gun into the air； pulling it out of her hand。 Angela just stared at me in horror and made no move to resist。 There were handcuffs locked on her tiny wrists and she still didn't struggle or cry out。 I jumped forward； shouting her name。
There were two burly types in Patrol uniforms behind Inskipp； and they took her。 Before I could reach the door he stepped through and closed it behind him。 I stumbled to a halt before it； as unable to fight as Angela had been a minute ago。
Chapter 19
〃Have a drink；〃 Inskipp said； dropping into Angela's chair and pulling out a hip flask。 〃Ersatz terran brandy； not this local brand of plastic solvent。〃 He offered me a cupful。
〃Drop dead； you 。 。 。〃 I followed with some of the choicer selections from my interstellar vocabulary； and tried to knock the cup out of his hand。 He fooled roe by raising it and drinking it himself； not in the least annoyed。
〃Is that any kind of language to use on your superior officer in the Special Corps？〃 he asked and refilled the cup。 〃It's a good thing we're a relaxed organization without too many rules。 Stillthere are limits。〃 He held out the cup again and this time I grabbed it and drained it。
〃Why did you do it？〃 I asked； still wracked by conflicting emotions。
〃Because you didn't； that's why。 The operation is over； you are a success。 Before you were merely on probation； but now you are a full agent。〃
He grubbed in one pocket and pulled out a little gold star made of paper。 After licking it carefully and solemnly he reached out and stuck it to the front of my shirt。
〃I hereby appoint you a Full Agent of the Special Corps；〃 he intoned； 〃by authority of the power vested in me。〃 Cursing； I reached to pick the damn thing offand laughed instead。 It was absurd。 It was also a fine mentary on the honors that went with the job。
〃I thought I was no longer a member of the crew；〃 I told him。
〃I never received your resignation；〃 Inskipp said。 〃Not that it would have meant anything。 You can't resign from the Corps。〃 〃Yeahbut I got your message when you gave me a discharge。 Or did you forget that I stole a ship and you set off the scuttling charge by remote to blow me up？ As you see I managed to pull the fuse just before it let go。〃
〃Nothing of the sort； my boy；〃 he said； settling back to sip his second drink。 〃You were so insistent about looking for the fair Angelina that I thought you might want to borrow a ship before we had a chance to assign you one。 Hie one you took had the fuse rigged